Till Fairy Tales Come True

 My body aches for you on this side of silence

And the test of the last words spoken
Praying it won't be the last words spoken
As doctrines of fear preach to my anxiety
Yet I starve my will to panic with patience
Where self-sacrifice and the death of impulse
Is learning what it means to love
But it keeps me up when I worry
I've said something wrong
And I'm tossed between certainty
Or the head games I play on myself
For worst anticipations of fragile connections
And the time that stands between us

Reading your mind or too far into things
I'll give you the benefit of the doubt
And kill my own to reinforce my backbone
As my heart finds the courage
To know when to speak or say nothing at all
Hit and miss between perfect moments
And human idiosyncrasies that threaten them
Yet in the end sometimes it's a beautiful let down
That makes it mean the most when we try

Passion comes naturally
And we can't force the seasons
We can only bask in the light
As our spirits learn to be the beam
Established on foundations of trust
Even as we wear the path in the wilderness
And learn to maneuver the terrain
It's the best of you in hopes of the best of me
And vice versa that will sustain

Because even upon departures
The thought of you remains
Making reservations for future anticipations
And knowing you're only hours away
As I learn to breathe on the respirator of a memory
Like life support and the great escape from comatose
Realizing the meaning of life to me is you
Next to Christ, you're an angel given care of heaven
To remind me, this is not the end
And for every lost home patterned after giving up
We will reverse the trend

As the same time that works against us
Is for our benefit to let doubts die
And find reassurance knowing our hearts fit together
As we bear mutual scars of feelings of abandonment
Yet we heal together as our hearts beat as one
Here in each other’s arms and we sync the rhythm
Despite palpitations, turbulence, and skipped beats
As we practice intimacy till, we realize perfect love
And fear is cast out at the thought of each other
Secured by embrace and finding confidence in knowing
Our love won't fail

Because if God is love
And the wisdom of love is to be a fool
Than I'll fool myself and make believe in us
Till fairy tales come true
As I learn to tame the beast in me
And trust in the collateral beauty that is you....