An Aunt Is A Mother Too (Dog Mom 3)

 

 

Reflecting once again

The scars that don’t speak for themselves

The unseen ache of what no one sees

The silent tug at the heart

No children to speak of but for our fur babies

Nevertheless an aunt in a lot of ways is like a mother too

And I know you love Khash as if he was our own as much as he loves me and you

You’ve so much affection to give and are just as fit to be what a mother should be

When I think of the ways you work hard for you and me

You’re a caregiver and homemaker in your own way

And deserve just as much to be remembered on Mother’s Day

I know of the past and the children you might have had

And how you can relate to others that may have miscarried

You’ve said at times you wish we could have biological children

But I knew what I was getting into when we got married

I love you so much and I wouldn’t have it any other way

I honestly couldn’t imagine raising kids in the world as it is today

Though others have suggested we might adopt

We both have our reasons for why we do not

Because it gives us our freedom to pursue other things and give each other all that we can

Even though at times I’ve let things get in the way as I learn how to be a husband and a better man

Your resilience bears such stark resemblance to my mom

In that you fight for us at all cost

And even as she said you were the daughter she never had

I know she’d be proud of you too

She raised me by her example of a good woman

To guide me in my love life

To find someone like you

Thank you for being all that you are and bearing with me through all we’ve endured

Happy Mother’s Day, love forever and for always, in action more than just in word…

Dog Mom 2

 

 

As children they are to us

With our affections set

More than just our dogs

More than just a pet

Loyalty wrapped in fur

Stubborn and stingy yet sweet

And I wonder if these are our daughters

Why does one of them lick our feet?

Yet no less we brave the task

As puppy parents we clean up the mess

And all I can say as I pick up the crap

Is that we are truly blessed

Though it seems when I compare the way

As children are our dogs in how they play

Yet not so much when I think

Would I allow my child to chew my socks or put up with the stink?

Even so as I jest

Perhaps they are more human than I give them credit for

When as we feed, groom, and water them

We overspend our budget at the grocery store

Yet what's more motherly than to think

Of the ways you nurture them

In place of those we cannot have as our own

We miss out on nothing

Our dogs complete our family

And make our dwelling place feel

A little more like home

Happy Dog Mom day

One of the truest mothers of two

I can't imagine life without them

Because they are just another part of you...

Beautiful By Association

 

 
Where do I begin again
When the words don't come like they use to
After the thought of all we've yet
And have already gone through

Instrumental in the orchestration
I found myself when I fell in love with you
This life is what we make of it in what we do

More than passing, making meaning of every moment
You are my pulse and life support

Feeling our way around in the dark
Despite all that lays claim to be our loves cessation
Everything is better when I'm with you
Everything is beautiful by association

Gardener, tending to the seasons of my soul
Green thumb and thimble, knit into the scenery
Heart heist, given to the same that stole
Love and cross threads lined within the tapestry

We pride not ourselves in our wounds but in our healing
Despite the ways that sorrow boasts, we glory not in the pain
Cause the sun outshines the darkest nights
And cleansing comes by way of hopes bloodstain

Love stories in the romance of redemption
You are God's personal expression to me of grace
For all the things I've done that aim to squander us
Fade-less are my vows when I look upon your face

More than an image I behold but something that I know
No matter how many times I've fallen, you'll never let me go
A thousand apologies and guilty pleas when I think of all I've done
Mercy extended to reinvest in the best of me after just year one

My vows won't end at words alone
When actions are the best way to amend
Death powerless to separate divine uniting

In your eyes is where I find my home
As I savor every moment with my God send
When you are my reason to keep on fighting

Finding myself when I get lost with you
Beyond touch or just a feeling or sensation
In this world where death lives and darkness prevails
All of this is an illusion when life is beautiful by association

I breathe and you make it all worthwhile
When all this world harbors is matchless to the wonder of your smile...

Effortlessly

 

I dream beside you of you
Sleeping in anticipation of waking up
Arms like resurrection
I am both sedated and yet moved by you

Every word is an understatement
In my vain attempt to appraise priceless
Heart like a home custom made
As I am the tenant of your soul
Steward of the invaluable possession of God

You are the light in the hope of a new day
Dawning on me every morning
You out rise the sun
If pain is weakness leaving the body
Then your tears shed the weight of grief

Every drop like a seed planted in the soil of my heart
As I speak a word to bloom bouquets of poetry
Displayed in memoirs like vases of my soul

You rob the pages of my self-expression
As you take up residence in my mind
And heist my affections
Reinforcing heartstrings weaved like a common thread
On the loom of our backbones entwined

You find reassurance in me yet are the stint of my hopes
Knit into the common fabric of our faith materialized
As you become the evidence of God to me
You are a beauty unaware of yourself in modesty
Shortchanged and overlooked by the world

If all it takes is one person’s absence to feel entirely alone
Surely you are more than enough to slight the odds
In the sure bets placed on remaking home
Words are fleeting or meaningful as the actions that back them
On a scale of truth to counterfeit you are a fade-less oath
Withstanding the test of time

Reciprocating every notion of love requited
You are a touch unparalleled with fingerprints left on my heart
Engraved like the signature of your hand unmatched
I cannot help but feel the way I do about you
As you provoke passion in me by nature

I bask in your light and shadows
Praying I am as much a joy to you as you are to me
Interchanging nightlight comforts as we radiate

Burning away the pain of yesterday with midnight oils ignited
I remain beside you equally as speechless in the face of knowing why
You’re a masterpiece naming me priceless while self-shortsighted
Loving you comes naturally and I hardly have to try…

Revision

 

 
At a loss for thoughts I speak
Where words proceed
Uttering past mind from the heart
Yet no less stones like pebbles
Fall into oceans
Ripples make waves of the impact
Ebbing and flowing
You break like water eroding the shoreline
And I restructure to adapt

Pull me out from amidst something abstract
Back to a more certain view
I muse upon the frustration and the beauty
Learning to translate the riddle that is you

Significance on the terms of what you mean to me
And what I mean to you that competes with the past
The pain only ever fed the crave
And we’ve worked up appetites for truth

Indulging on the affections found in each other’s arms
Cathartic embrace of these hands
Finding healing in reconstructive heart surgery
A new flesh comprised of two and fused into one
Extracting the residue of the former
Love reborn from the throes of a miscarried vow
Blind eyes reopen find vision, the future begins now

I know a love that never fails
Foundations laid on a cross we bare
The joy set before was enough to endure the nails
Offspring of divine Love, adoptions of grace, we heir

The death of the Son transcribed the “will” of God
As we inherit the priceless assets of destiny
Redraft our contracts like maps to recourse wandering
Like the first steps of redemption

Second chances given at the end of prodigal squandering
Blood for the ashes of the past
The dead weight became the compost
And the same we bury in the graveyard of memory
Is re-purposed to be laid in the foundation of a new beginning

Tending to the garden, the structures of our hopes
Roses blossom from cracks like scars in concrete
Broken by the roots we crawl out from the wreckage of our pride
True beauty prevails over the superficial endorsements of our own vain achievements
As the Author of our faith revises us…

Till Death, Till Forever

 

Hopeless romance whispers
The beautiful allure of fantasy
Competing with imagination
All that is expected of me

Tied up back and forth
I'm not here to cast you for the role of perfect
Just the perfect one for me

Caught up in in-congruent orbits
Searching for the balance in all things
Going out of my way
Lost in space
I catch your atmosphere

An unseen pull formulates the bond
As you draw me closer to you
From the outskirts of beyond
Connections deeper than the skin
Something resonates from within

Finding the harmony
From disjointed efforts of self-fulfillment
Criticized to customize
Stubborn wills wrestle till we compromise

Come back into view
What you mean to me is what I mean to you
Nothing in the world is worth us
There is no marvel like you and I

The question is less the way that we embellish
But what is left when the noise dies down
What does my voice say to you when I am silent?
Words in the absence as we become a cause to believe in

Don't doubt the idealization of all that love can be
Training through moments and adaptation
Learning the process
Vows spoken prior to ceremony

Every test makes us who we are
Expressing sentiments of second nature
Priceless and sold short, all I have is my every breath
Your heart is a jewel I would be a fool to squander
You are a part of me even beyond the dues of death...

Attached At The Heart

I am canvas to your every stroke

As you paint murals in shades of contrast
When love is the test and the reward
And if a lifetime is what it takes to show you
Then you’re worth every breath I pledge to afford
With a racing heart and a vapor moment
Days pass like seconds but I live

In the everlasting memory of you
Awakening on the inside to realize my desire
I catch wind of your essence
You set my heart ablaze and now I’m panting fire
Igniting the brush of loneliness incinerated in your arms
This is passion, you’re my happiness
And I’m caught in the hex of your unrelenting charms
Cast spells of a lover’s enchantment
Awestruck and living captivated by beautiful
You leave me both satisfied and wanting more

I die and live in your eyes all at once
As former things dissipate, and I’m consumed
I can’t help but get stuck on you
As I trail off into the wanderlust of your mind
Like an unsung wonder of a world gone blind
Everything in time, upset perspective
Reality coming into alignment with my dream come true
You are my pulse as I come alive in your arms
There’s no such thing as miles between us when my hearts with you…

Till Fairy Tales Come True

 My body aches for you on this side of silence

And the test of the last words spoken
Praying it won't be the last words spoken
As doctrines of fear preach to my anxiety
Yet I starve my will to panic with patience
Where self-sacrifice and the death of impulse
Is learning what it means to love
But it keeps me up when I worry
I've said something wrong
And I'm tossed between certainty
Or the head games I play on myself
For worst anticipations of fragile connections
And the time that stands between us

Reading your mind or too far into things
I'll give you the benefit of the doubt
And kill my own to reinforce my backbone
As my heart finds the courage
To know when to speak or say nothing at all
Hit and miss between perfect moments
And human idiosyncrasies that threaten them
Yet in the end sometimes it's a beautiful let down
That makes it mean the most when we try

Passion comes naturally
And we can't force the seasons
We can only bask in the light
As our spirits learn to be the beam
Established on foundations of trust
Even as we wear the path in the wilderness
And learn to maneuver the terrain
It's the best of you in hopes of the best of me
And vice versa that will sustain

Because even upon departures
The thought of you remains
Making reservations for future anticipations
And knowing you're only hours away
As I learn to breathe on the respirator of a memory
Like life support and the great escape from comatose
Realizing the meaning of life to me is you
Next to Christ, you're an angel given care of heaven
To remind me, this is not the end
And for every lost home patterned after giving up
We will reverse the trend

As the same time that works against us
Is for our benefit to let doubts die
And find reassurance knowing our hearts fit together
As we bear mutual scars of feelings of abandonment
Yet we heal together as our hearts beat as one
Here in each other’s arms and we sync the rhythm
Despite palpitations, turbulence, and skipped beats
As we practice intimacy till, we realize perfect love
And fear is cast out at the thought of each other
Secured by embrace and finding confidence in knowing
Our love won't fail

Because if God is love
And the wisdom of love is to be a fool
Than I'll fool myself and make believe in us
Till fairy tales come true
As I learn to tame the beast in me
And trust in the collateral beauty that is you....

The Perfect Way To Die

Taking it slow as time feels like teasing
When in truth it’s all for seasons of just right
Working on my perfect swing
And finding the pace
That makes it all come together at the right time

My heart is captured and without escape
Locked inside this prison of sublime
And it’s my pleasure to find myself hostage
To the promise of a thousand I love you’s
To find home in hearts conjoined in renovation
We are together in this at the mercy of our affections

Like suicide bombers we burn within the wreckage
With combustible euphoria and the radiation builds
Effectually exuding from our hearts
And impacting everything we touch
We burn the world down and make it our own
You are the cadence of a perfect love song
With words that set the beat
And actions composed by faithfulness
As we speak to chart a course for destiny

You are the sun and I bask in the rays of your beauty
My heart blossoms and I present to you the nectar of my affection
Love me more and it’s multiplied back to you
As we gamble on returns and the game is fixed to always find
We trade roles back and forth as dealer and placed bets
As we lose our pride, and win each other’s hearts

Cultivating confidence in love
I am the tide at the shorelines of your heart
Finding harmony in light of the moon
I want to die dancing with you…

Life Support

 

Vape pen breaths for euphoria
As I take hits off your lips
Front stage
A passenger audience to car ride karaoke
Care free singing your favorite songs as you become mine
Harmonizing with the melody of memory
The little things, the sentiments of

Your favorite candy that encapsulates the essence
That is the sweetness of you
Reese’s pieces cups and midnight cuddling
You are the sun beaming warm rays on a summer night
Like a personal glow with a lantern heart, my night light

I slowly drift off into dreams of perfection
And reawaken in the arms of paradise
While I fight to sustain an everlasting moment
And die in your arms living a perfect moment with you

I only have a way with words because you've got a way with my heart
And I'm inspired to write your brilliance in my best attempts
To serenade beautiful
And yet I'm making understatements of an angel
As words translate to becoming
And reality is recalibrated setting course for a dream come true…

Lifelong Godsend

How do I begin to utter love
Yet beyond what I say
My promise is only as true as what is done

When vows are more than words
But a script whereby I pledge my life
As every day I learn to tell you that you are the one
And how proud I am to call you my wife

To have and yet not to abuse or control
To hold as touch is to the surface
That which the heart is to the soul

An impenetrable embrace unencumbered by circumstances
Made sure by our better days and tried true in the face of the worst
You are the one that my life romances

Through days of night wearied of physical and emotion sickness
To the kinder tides of health
I love and will continue to love and cherish you
Even at the cost of myself
As every moment is a lesson in love's reply
Let my life be the evidence of my love for you
And your soul's beauty be the evidence why

Through prosperous times and in scarcity
Let our hearts be enriched of our bonds
Spoken and set in integrity's stone
To outlive brokenness and breathe beyond
Every whispering lie that threatens to find us alone

I will be yours for always and forever
In the good and through the wreckage of despair
Our love will remain
And when life hurts the most I will be there

To love and to honor you, faithful to the end
Just as you are to me, I pray that I'd be
Worthy of being called your lover and closest friend
Your lifelong counterpart and ever-enduring Godsend...

Love As A Second Language

 

 
If God is love
What are we but the understudies
Like amateur craftsman of something divine
Does practice make perfect?

What is this antithesis of our humanity
Are we second nature fakes or best attempts
When all we are is graded on a curve of forgiveness
When mercy is the only way to sustain
The efforts of our fluctuating commitment

Love potency of first words in the infancy
Our lessons in a disenchanted fantasy
More than romance but something true
Evermore distinguished as we age
What is love but a lifetimes lesson in learning how to

Oh the masquerade of heart shoppers
And the tattered remains of hand me down love songs
It's not the words but the ways that tell most true
As we retailer used hearts and recreate joys after I do's

I want to play more than house but embody home
Un-tethered from all that is formerly broken
As character is the tell between the authentic and the fool
Every promise seen never risks coming up empty when unspoken

Liberated from expectation and learning to become the call
When love is a foreign tongue
It is a second language bringing out the best in us all

Somewhere between response and reaction
The longing that drives us
And the impulse of spontaneous passion

Love is a diamond under pressure framing the light
A prism of a greater fire proven by its will to fight...

No Longer Abused

Ending another chapter, occupied by thoughts of you
Inhabiting my life without regret my sweet be-wed
Onward to the future, summits in mind from a valley's point of view
As we journey forward we find the past is dead

What matters most but love's legacy in perpetual rebirth
Our hearts consummated in covenant fused
Resilient our hopes, resilient our worth
Undefined, unbroken, no longer abused

Now as we begin again in full surrender
No reservation left, our doubts starved and faded
Ever I will be your support and defender
You are to me my one and only love un-jaded

Ending yet as I begin again with each new day
Love in more than words but as our lives go on to say...

Crash Landing

After the smoke clears, we mend to re-bond
As amateurs in holiness putting into practice what we know
When the lesser ways of who we've been, we look beyond
Despite every obstacle and wound, never letting go

Experience our teacher for wisdom bought through tears
We're in this thing together
From now until a lifetimes years
For always and forever

Reckless crash landing, more than just trying to survive
Tenacious our hearts beat past broken
Pain and love demanding what it means to be alive
Every foot step tells the truth about every word we've spoken

Authenticate these words, time will tell
There's no question of my love for you, but do I love you well?

Love Endures All Things

Better lost for words than actions
When profession is only worth its weight in follow through
Best efforts falling short when we are made of fractions
Amnesty, I pray, restoration finds me doing right by you

Turn the tide to new frontiers
We set sail
Recourse the death on my tongue to diminish all my fears
As I drive in the final nail

Into the coffin of all that was for what is yet
Travailing to attain through faith
The ugly of all things former subject to forget
Tell me that it's never too late

Do overs, the disenchanted, remorse and penance to retake
Set the scene as love is a lesson in holding on through heartbreak...

Better Days

Hopeless romantic, you name me, as if a diminished plea
Yet still a thousand words I'd give to utter my undying vow
Time and time again I remind myself not what I say but to be
As I become love in more than words but in the how

Learning time and again what my best intentions phrase
Growing up in the humble boast of this demand
Expectations taking shape to give you better days
But by the grace of God, I will do everything I can

Mercy bridges fortified over the chasm of former bitterness
Of past lives and disappointments like the blemish of an invisible scar
We will not be robbed of our joy despite fluctuating happiness
As we assure each other of what's to come and who we really are

Splinted against the backbone of our mutual desire
To both please and to fulfill each other as we harness our own fire...

Worth The Fight

 

Salvaging the moment as a reminder in the dark
The light of you as guidance when all is grim
I reflect on the blessing of your unquenchable spark
When all feels lost, you help me find my hope again

Oh that these words would be a mirror
To reveal to you a hint of your worth to me
And that I drone not on to weary the hearer
But my every word be backed by my integrity

Lost in cycles, seeking for a constant stride
Another day, another moment to get it right
As the substance speaks of something more inside
I go to war with my own nature and you are worth the fight

As a warrior, I find strength in what I'm striving for
To be the man you believe me to be and so much more...

Breath Taking

Like a never ending story
The short sight of these words
Face value, a paraded glory
I yearn to rise as with the birds

Taking flight in the right season
Destination home in the remaking
Your arms are shelter, you are my reason
Heart given to the breath taking

Developing the life we yearn to see
Inverted negatives on display
Exposures in process reveal it all to be
Perfect moments hanging in the balance of all things gray

You are my museum of beauty and grace
More than something surface, rather the soul that I embrace...

Fragments and Fractures

In honesty I take it all apart
Piece by piece, I un-flatter, transparent
Dissecting intersections, broken heart
Letter scars outline love beyond merit

Expressions of grace, extend your mercy
The fingerprints of God inside your hand
Admittance of my flaws, I am guilty
Learning, even as I am, just a man

Fragments and fractures, love you as I can
Imperfect serenades, I make it up
Love me and rediscover who I am
A shattered vessel, a misshapen cup

Doing the best I can to quench your thirst
Love returned most truly when given first...

One Flame of Two

Falling in love everyday the heart speaks
Learning to hone once more one flame of two
I count each passing day within these weeks
And think how blessed I am to be with you

More than a web of words I seek to weave
But this blanket of assurance I knit
To reinforce what it means to believe
As I follow through, more than counterfeit

I write these letters as I reminisce
On the first moments our love came alive
From the moment I met you to first kiss
Once I was born, but here with you I thrive

I can't imagine this life without you
And God willing, I will never have to...

Blue Skies

Filtering life through love for clarity
Made of the hues, our undying passion
Lost for nothing, when you are there with me
Footsteps ripple, love given, love reaction

As I reflect on how this all began
I meander down memories of you
Romance shades my perception once again
Rain fall in mind, the skies are always blue

You are the pleasant in the nightmare of
This world that aims to rob our laughter
The evidence of something more above
You are my happily ever after

And after evermore, essence of life
Undone once again to call you my wife...

Facing The Storm

Vulnerable I lay my heart bare before your touch
You see my imperfections as love guides my apologetic
For all that has been forgiven, my heart loves much
Entreat me further my love in this our song's aesthetic

Finding our rhythm and learning to walk all over again, together
By mercy and grace we become our oaths as we live what we have spoken
Facing the storm in every moment that we weather
Our bond reinforced and evermore unbroken

Take shape, our hearts, like diamonds from the coal
Mining from the depths our intentions and actions calibrate expression
Resonating by nature what dwells inside my soul
Love prints drafted of an inexplicable impression

Your essence a force that keeps me locked inside your gaze
Our eyes caught each others, I was blind before I saw the world through your rays...

True North

Ageless is our love preserving the youth inside our soul
I spend these midnight hours writing letters postdated for the right time
To reinforce in words what my life speaks in toll
The priceless sentiments of something heartfelt for my valentine

More than just a day but for a lifetime I learn the language of you
As I am domesticated by nature into the culture of our love's exclusive trend
Fine tuning the vision of our heart's woven into another point of view
Compromise and collaboration, even after death surely we will never end

Wishful thinking, perhaps, yet even so, let my passion be untamed
To reinvigorate our hearts in commitment to the concept of all that we are
As in association with one another let us be mutually named
With legacies entwined as constellations draw our faces in the stars

I look towards the heavens and find north in light of you
Guiding me home to rest beside, where nothing in this life speaks so true...

Breath To Breath

Days gone by and still I cannot say it enough
Repetitive it feels yet no less I remind myself of what it means
More than words but learning to put into practice the deeds of love
You are the girl of my every waking moment and my dreams

Once again you enrapture me with but a look to catch my eyes
As I am reborn in your love that takes me in time and time again
The selfishness of the man I was before you dies
Our hearts beat as one, I cannot tell when yours ends and mine begins

You are the inhale and I am the exhale as we share every breath
I cannot imagine life without you by my side
As we love so our affections prolong the inevitability of death
Proud am I to call you my one and only bride

You are my life, you inspire the man that I aspire to be
As the best parts of you calls out the best in me...

Silver and Gold

Where do I begin to recapture the essence of our love here and now
Yet in the endless quest to draw on the enchantment of our first romance
To think back and look on the ways of love phrased in the how
As we act to articulate our faithfulness in the platitudes of a lifetimes dance

You've got a way of enthralling me with each new day
When you rise to shine as though competing with the sun
You are the center of my orbit in every way
Since the first moment that I met you, I knew you were the one

Shaming within, these clichés I speak, lacking justice your worth to me
Yet no less the inspiration behind a depth of feeling that I fail
Beyond a mere emotion as we find our way in destiny
You are beauty unrivaled, the standard by which all other beauties pale

What are my words but a silver tongue for your priceless heart of gold?
As I bid my life on loving you, I count the cost, and I am sold...

Highway Co-pilot

 

 
Strange it seems to think
A chain of dive diners and yet one so unique
For all the booths frequented and memories made
Only one sticks out most in my mind for which my heart strayed

Lost and found in common place
Truck stop slumbering next door to a dream come true
Homeless beside heartache, for love and belonging
Whether at a diner or car ride karaoke
Anywhere is home when I'm with you

We made up the magic as we went
From broke and broken to something God sent
Next door neighbors of employment
Our bond forged in and out of the establishment

How I think of how this began
Who might've known where we would be now
Learning to live all over again
In love evermore, we find our way somehow

More than mere enchantment
But the substance we find through every trial
Truck-stop hybrid to nourishment
On this road called life, you're my rest stop at every mile...

Vows

 

 
Retracing my footsteps
For the negligence of the invaluable
How easy it is to squander in moments what you've waited a lifetime for
Taking advantage

First love is my only one
Yet is spoken as if a connotation for plan b kisses with a clause to disclaim vows

Committed beyond paper
When my heart is in contract beyond termination
Beyond the breach of compromise
I draft my ideals at the altar
As I learn to walk love and find my gait after the pace of a lifetime's race

If her heart is a prize I win every day
Then I run to attain first place in her eyes and contend to secure that position
Maintaining something more than just a trophy to exploit accomplishment

More than just a reflection on reputation
But to do justice beauty and virtue
To live worth the weight of a priceless heart by the intrinsic value of action
As vows are reproved by consistency...

Dog Mom

At a loss for words
I empathize and fail to understand
The depth of the pain of yearning for
A love coveted and yet never known

An empty bassinet
And whispers made of cries
That resound inside your mind
Wondering about those you might have had

Yet it makes you no less a mother
When the spirited young live on

As if man's best friend is God's way
To fill this void inside your heart for child's play
In the bark of our rambunctious kids of canine origins
Love surpasses the restrictive perspective of creatures
When in some small way
They both resemble your personality's features

Whether the sweet and cuddling nature of our mop head shih tzu
Or her spirited chihuahua sister by adoption, the term dog mom fits you
For the depth of your love for them and for me
Goes to show how essential you are to us
And what caliber of mother you are and evermore would be...

Bittersweet Vapors

 

Caught in spells like phases  
On opposite extremes  
Whether we speak life as a nightmare  
Or the hype of our dreams  

When the romance isn't what it used to be  
We're just detoxing from fantasy  
Learning to understand true intimacy  
When face to face with circumstances and adjusting to reality  

Yet nothing is as bad as it tries to appear  
When it boasts of its weight in a delusion of fear  
You just want to be heard but you don't want to hear  
Sabotage for a lack of giving voice to wisdom when love draws near  
 
While I retreat to the thought of feeling like it's my fault  
Despite the ways I get it right, what's wrong short sights the value  
When I'm the one to blame for the depreciated worth of my words  
Disbelieve your doubts when I say I love you  
 
When love feels like it's reduced to vapor  
Is it the gift or the curse of breathing  
Does it always have to have the right flavor  
Or can it just be that we understand the beauty of bleeding  
 
When pain is the endurance of prolonged suffering  
And disappointed desires to see the seasons change  
The way and when we want them to  
 
All I have is the pain of a blood soaked offering  
When all I have to give is all that remains  
And all I can say is I still love you  
 
Despite all that tests our will to commit  
As we devote a lifetime to see it through  
When everything is shaken will we stand  
As love goes from just mentally ascending to ideals but what we do  
 
How do I say it today, beyond the words  
Please know, though I'm still learning what it means  
I still love you  
And even when life hurts  
I still love you...

Forever and For Always

 

 

Speaking new words for the same undying feelings
Learning to translate vows to a life with you
Loose interpretations of our love that is its own language
We beat the odds of all that aims to sabotage
As our first year is just one of many to come
You are the destination that satisfies my wandering
When everyday reproves the fact that you'll always be the one

Starting from the beginning, I reminisce
You stole my heart with your smile
I gave it to you and you reciprocated my affections with a kiss
As soundtracks play in the background
Coldplay says it best in "something just like this"
When every moment we're apart is another opportunity to miss

Anticipation between the moments we're together
What is love and what is marriage
But the beauty and frustration of cultivating happiness
Somewhere between the work it takes and basking in this bliss
You're worth it all to me and I wouldn't trade you for the world
Because apart from you there is nothing but emptiness

First steps of our one year old love song
And our pivotal seconds founded on initial memory
I was reborn in your arms
And my life took on new meaning as I opened up my eyes to see
Despite all the pitfalls that got us to this place
All that we've been through merely reaffirmed a sense of destiny
What can I say that isn't already said in the way you move like poetry
Ebbing and flowing on the shorelines of my heart
Hand and hand we match in perfect symmetry

Despite the ways we differ on preferences and varied tastes
We agree on all that matters most, and I've found my home in you
Cause even when we're apart our hearts embrace
And our ever enduring patience proves our love is true

You'll always be my world and my favorite point of view
You inspire the very best in me... "I like me better when I'm with you"
Happy Birthday and Anniversary, thank you for loving me in everything you do
Even as we grow old together, we'll be forever young, when everyday our love is new...

Inspired By You

 
oh that I could stand
with heed to the caution that I do not stand
yet it is my nature to fall
but it is the value bestowed on love
that finds trust's integrity is the ability to walk beyond ourselves
I am not my cure when I am diagnosed of failure

former ways haunt me in the mind of your doubts
and act as a reminder that draws my attentions back
into alignment with the will to resist
your eyes well with tears but stream down my cheeks
when grace is correction
and wounds are the conduit to disenchant betrayal

it hurts me to think that I could be your trauma
despite the way it seems that others cut deeper than I
but even so, every demon of the past bears semblance
when the pain of another inflicted could just as easily be mine
what is this, the vengeance of consequence
when who I was comes back to tarnish reputation

and the faithful wounds of friends finds truest the scars of lovers
when my only response is humility, incarcerated by a thought
when I am guilty of who I was but convicted of who I am
believe me better than what I've been that causes you to doubt me
and I'll make your fears the liar when nightmares don't come true
yet not because of me, but integrity sustained by truth and inspired by you

when dreams of life contend against lethal fantasies
and every sin is an empty promise to fulfill
you make me come alive, when love is the reason why
I breathe past the grave of the me that I kill

don't harbor my ghost against me
when every sin of the past is a liar's reminder
to accuse me of being a man I never truly was
as I learn to find confidence in being reborn
and I work up the courage to forgive myself
to outlive the empty wrath of my own scorn

when your fear is an echo of my self-doubt
and I realize there is safety in knowing the enemy
my flesh proves to be but the truest devil
and for the sake of love, I will be the death of me...