You Are My Thought Life

This is love past the confines of fantasy
I cant dream your extravagance on my best day
But you are my dream come true on my darkest night
Even as you love me at my worst

Endurance finds patience and mercy is key to bringing out the best in me
And you're my inspiration to keep on going
In the moments I wanted to quit on my own
God sustained me for knowing I would find you

And you're the light at the end of the tunnel
Ever brighter as love proves to be the death of me
Where selfishness takes its last breath
Every day I die to be resurrected in light of you

I am a broken seed reborn in the soil of our small beginnings
Consumed by thoughts of you and a lifetime too short to count them
You outshine the stars and outlast the light of day
It's as if I've died and gone to heaven only to realize heaven is you...

The Defects of Persective

Hear me out, not in word
But what actions interpret
When love is multilingual
Of gift, deed, and touch

Translations searching
In the dialect that resounds
Truest to you
Full time efforts to make a living
And keep the ship afloat
When it’s sink or set sail
But the helm is feral as the fires of hell

Tame me with silence
Till every word tells true
It’s everything I have to offer
When the currency of the heart is blood
And every beat is time placing bid on us

I'll place the highest I can
When vows pledge a life
Yet every breath shortchanges priceless
Oh that I could be but a glimpse of what you mean to me
And loving you deeper than you've been hurt
Would tip the scales in your eyes to reaffirm self worth

When you and I are the same
In the defects of perspective
The only lack we know is in what we see
And if it's any indication of how much I love you
Than find confidence in knowing the way I feel about you
Is just as true as the way you feel about me...

Pulsing Floorboards

Should I spare you the details of my humanity?
Or is love most beautifully displayed when it hurts
Accused of boundaries compromised
I'll take sides against me when my eyes prosecute

Love is on trial by fire in the cases made against my heart
When integrity comes into question on the premise of bad apples
Where even sweet is bitter when fear goes to war with trust
I'll give you no reason to doubt me and leave nothing in the dark

For accountability's sake
As I clear my conscience and pry corpses from beneath the pulsing floorboards
Am I wrong not to preserve the illusion of being anything more than just a man?
And are we so lost to find that greatness is a myth

In the context of the ways we have been compromised
When true love is not the absence of flaw
But faithfulness despite ugly tendencies

What am I first to be the convict of?
Whether evidence finds me guilty of capability
Or the love that disarms me
And the mistakes I'll never make on account of my devotion to you...

There’s No Such Thing As A Lost Cause

I lost my words in the erasures
Shed the weight of heaviness
With dead skin like the shell of a former heart
Walls dismantled by the lungs of a new born cry
Children are the milestones of letting dead dogs lie

Hope resurrected in the eyes of innocence
Fresh vision on the shores of youthful tides
Learning how to dream again
If the test of love is time, the young come to our aid to cheat death
And reinvigorate the passion to remind us why we breathe

Finding purpose all over again
Do we raise the children or do they raise the dead?
As we bury the skeletons of yesterday and resurrect our dreams
Our hearts are a shackle worth bearing
Anchored to desire

I found harbor in a new hope that gives life meaning
We are a reoccurring lifetime with hand-me-down wisdom's to impart
Forging our way through the wilderness
Making home in a place of desperation

Contending onward till we conceive the offspring of our efforts
No cause is lost if there is a fool to fight for it
I guess we're just compatible fools willing to fight for each other...

Beyond Pretense

worn out, the withdrawals of another life
bitterness finds his hands take from you
bearing the joy and the burden of love and wreckage
pouring ourselves into the mold of us

finding the balance between desire and compromise
no one is selfish we are all just broken lovers learning how to love
launching beyond pretense and preconceived ideas
I love you for you are and not who you think I want you to be
you're worth every sacrifice to me

don’t stop breathing and pass away with yesterday
when you've got the rest of your life to live
love was never about changing anyone
just accepting ourselves
and becoming who we never knew we were

it's safe to say I never knew who I was until I fell in love
only then I discovered me when I found you...

Legacy

Humble beginnings finds us here
Legacies born in the eyes of the young
We run parallel races
Side by side, separate and together

Destiny's in collision
Forging bonds and bloodlines
What is another's offspring
But the foreshadowing of our own
More than just a house we're building
Blueprints in our hearts for home

Love makes all the difference
Salvaging what's left of the dying breed
Bearing the burdens of beauty and sacrifice
We are the mothers and fathers of the next generation in need
For love we wage our wars, for the future we die, for the future we bleed
Rehabilitating humanity, praises in the cries of the unborn seed

Conceived of desire
Our dreams come alive in the pulse of infancy
Expectant to an end began, the ongoing story foretold of intimacy
Learning what it means to tie knots and extend family ties
The light of our dawning day, where vision begins is where darkness dies

Laying off the former torments of counterfeited love
And the horrors of trusts betrayed
Another chance to get it right
A legacy remade...

Redeemed

Road blocks on my journey
Seeking to utter something to convey
All I've yet to learn about love
More than just something beautiful I say

Face to face I confront the affliction
Of everything that swells inside
When you are broken I am broken
Even before ceremony you are my bride

One flesh, every moment reaffirms connection
Courting towards a date to make conviction true
My heart conflicted by its ways
Reborn in light of loving you

Pure sacrifice in the making
From crooked origins redeemed
I craved you before I touched you
You are the one of whom I dreamed

Threaded of the divine
Knit into the fabric of the Son
Whether chosen or prearranged by God
To me you are the one...

Faith In 2020 (Part 2)

when did healing ever come
by way of guilt tripping the wounded
and who's wrong and who is right
unbridled desire, un-tamable fire
and I cant help but want you

yet craving is poison
when reduced to a fix
and I speak love on the lips
of a counterfeit

oh I am the beam in my own eye
obstructions of divinities view
and I cant see God quite so clearly
when loving the unseen
is in the way I feel I fail to love you

I choke on my own tongue
my fountain of conviction and indecision
calibrate a way towards destiny
as I utter detours to pit falls

can we salvage the journey
and love conquer the death in my heart
as I shed the weight of my flesh
everyday I am the burden I crucify
life is its own sacrifice to survive
and you're the only reason that I'm still alive

hope to regulate the heartbeat
when a life with you is a life worth living
I don’t want to wake up from a dream come true
lest reality comes with blindsides
and I'm lost for the words that cost me you

scale my heart against yours, I fail to compare
don’t give up, no matter how hard it gets
I'll always be, will you be...there?

Faith In 2020 (Part 1)

oh duality of passions
love is in the fight as much the embrace
when every disagreement says I care
and we'll come to terms with it
realizing how much so

when lives are in the balance
somewhere between chance
and meant to be
forging legacies together
part 1 of our journey towards a lifetime

if only foresight was 20/20
and we could perfect clarity in a year
calibrating dreams and vision
till reality bears some semblance to
a more beautiful way to breathe

it took 12 years to come full circle
and find someone I never knew I knew
if I knew then what I know now
I wouldn't have waited to fall in love with you...

Broken Butterfly (Part 2)

brittle wings in a twister
obstructing flight from a to b
thrown off track
reflecting on you
coming to terms with me

in light of you
these parallels I see
haunted by desire
this is where I want to be
settled within unpredictability

the adventure of you
I journey into the depths
separately together
reform, redefine, identity...

Broken Butterfly

what is love
but the slow and steady ruin
of the ideals of romance
intimacy begins
where fantasy dies
acquiring a taste

beyond the way it feels
but the choice to remain
relationship is both
the pain of pleasure
and the joy of pain

abandon reason
we are fools committed to fools
I feel lost when I am found
in the disillusionment of us
and rediscovery finds
to know anyone
is the disenchantment of perfection

for the excitement of
the beautifully flawed
like symmetry gets hazy in the details
butterfly disaffection
temporal glories fade for familiarity

what will keep us in the end
but the will to say I do
in the moments it's hardest to
when love is not a matter of falling
but a choice made afresh every day
you are not forgotten
or expendable
despite what the actions
of a former life may say...

Beyond Me

underestimation of a short changed heart
starting over, make true every word, till death do us part
restore the years stolen by a liars love
learning to lead as I live by example the truth I speak of

set up as a new hope for a second chance to get it right
by your side I'll stand, never again alone, your heart's worth the fight

transparent am I giving way as I emulate true loves guiding light
a new days horizon dawns, conflagration of a shadow haunted mind
the stars foretell of the end of night
as sight returns to the eyes of the formerly blind

blood behind your self-perception has tainted the view
if only you could see what I see when I look at you
trading the scars of the afflicted for the healers holes in hand
oh I that would be graced to love you in ways, more than just a man...

Alloy Heart

put my heart in words
every beat speaks your name
as you become my pulse
when love is death
I come alive on the other side
of the end of me

counting moments to memories
these our days of small beginnings
reservations made to make vows
speaking the echo
reinforcing confidence derived
affirming in time
it's not enough to say I love you

apart from the ways that say it every day
I'm an alloy being refined
extracting impurity from a heart of gold
oh that you would know your face
as I see it

till it reflects your beauty back to you
when lovely isn't something
you’re waiting to become
but the very essence of who you are...

Priceless Eyes

i was found
cast away and drowning in a sea of time
I missed you before we met
it took 29 years for my life to begin
as if my lungs never understood
the purpose of a breath
until I was breathing for you

as if we survive to sustain waiting
till life rewards the efforts of staying alive
I was no one till I was yours
and love gave me an identity
never seen till I was revealed in light of you
am I worth my weight in the way you look at me
as I live up to the value your heart bestows on me

appraised by priceless eyes
learning to decipher what you see
knowing my every flaw
and like the grace of God, still
you love me...