Sunday, January 1, 2023

Bittersweet Vapors

 


Caught in spells like phases  
On opposite extremes  
Whether we speak life as a nightmare  
Or the hype of our dreams  

When the romance isn't what it used to be  
We're just detoxing from fantasy  
Learning to understand true intimacy  
When face to face with circumstances and adjusting to reality  

Yet nothing is as bad as it tries to appear  
When it boasts of its weight in a delusion of fear  
You just want to be heard but you don't want to hear  
Sabotage for a lack of giving voice to wisdom when love draws near  
 
While I retreat to the thought of feeling like it's my fault  
Despite the ways I get it right, what's wrong short sights the value  
When I'm the one to blame for the depreciated worth of my words  
Disbelieve your doubts when I say I love you  
 
When love feels like it's reduced to vapor  
Is it the gift or the curse of breathing  
Does it always have to have the right flavor  
Or can it just be that we understand the beauty of bleeding  
 
When pain is the endurance of prolonged suffering  
And disappointed desires to see the seasons change  
The way and when we want them to  
 
All I have is the pain of a blood soaked offering  
When all I have to give is all that remains  
And all I can say is I still love you  
 
Despite all that tests our will to commit  
As we devote a lifetime to see it through  
When everything is shaken will we stand  
As love goes from just mentally ascending to ideals but what we do  
 
How do I say it today, beyond the words  
Please know, though I'm still learning what it means  
I still love you  
And even when life hurts  
I still love you...

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