Inspired By You

 
oh that I could stand
with heed to the caution that I do not stand
yet it is my nature to fall
but it is the value bestowed on love
that finds trust's integrity is the ability to walk beyond ourselves
I am not my cure when I am diagnosed of failure

former ways haunt me in the mind of your doubts
and act as a reminder that draws my attentions back
into alignment with the will to resist
your eyes well with tears but stream down my cheeks
when grace is correction
and wounds are the conduit to disenchant betrayal

it hurts me to think that I could be your trauma
despite the way it seems that others cut deeper than I
but even so, every demon of the past bears semblance
when the pain of another inflicted could just as easily be mine
what is this, the vengeance of consequence
when who I was comes back to tarnish reputation

and the faithful wounds of friends finds truest the scars of lovers
when my only response is humility, incarcerated by a thought
when I am guilty of who I was but convicted of who I am
believe me better than what I've been that causes you to doubt me
and I'll make your fears the liar when nightmares don't come true
yet not because of me, but integrity sustained by truth and inspired by you

when dreams of life contend against lethal fantasies
and every sin is an empty promise to fulfill
you make me come alive, when love is the reason why
I breathe past the grave of the me that I kill

don't harbor my ghost against me
when every sin of the past is a liar's reminder
to accuse me of being a man I never truly was
as I learn to find confidence in being reborn
and I work up the courage to forgive myself
to outlive the empty wrath of my own scorn

when your fear is an echo of my self-doubt
and I realize there is safety in knowing the enemy
my flesh proves to be but the truest devil
and for the sake of love, I will be the death of me...