Beyond Pretense

worn out, the withdrawals of another life
bitterness finds his hands take from you
bearing the joy and the burden of love and wreckage
pouring ourselves into the mold of us

finding the balance between desire and compromise
no one is selfish we are all just broken lovers learning how to love
launching beyond pretense and preconceived ideas
I love you for you are and not who you think I want you to be
you're worth every sacrifice to me

don’t stop breathing and pass away with yesterday
when you've got the rest of your life to live
love was never about changing anyone
just accepting ourselves
and becoming who we never knew we were

it's safe to say I never knew who I was until I fell in love
only then I discovered me when I found you...

Legacy

Humble beginnings finds us here
Legacies born in the eyes of the young
We run parallel races
Side by side, separate and together

Destiny's in collision
Forging bonds and bloodlines
What is another's offspring
But the foreshadowing of our own
More than just a house we're building
Blueprints in our hearts for home

Love makes all the difference
Salvaging what's left of the dying breed
Bearing the burdens of beauty and sacrifice
We are the mothers and fathers of the next generation in need
For love we wage our wars, for the future we die, for the future we bleed
Rehabilitating humanity, praises in the cries of the unborn seed

Conceived of desire
Our dreams come alive in the pulse of infancy
Expectant to an end began, the ongoing story foretold of intimacy
Learning what it means to tie knots and extend family ties
The light of our dawning day, where vision begins is where darkness dies

Laying off the former torments of counterfeited love
And the horrors of trusts betrayed
Another chance to get it right
A legacy remade...

Redeemed

Road blocks on my journey
Seeking to utter something to convey
All I've yet to learn about love
More than just something beautiful I say

Face to face I confront the affliction
Of everything that swells inside
When you are broken I am broken
Even before ceremony you are my bride

One flesh, every moment reaffirms connection
Courting towards a date to make conviction true
My heart conflicted by its ways
Reborn in light of loving you

Pure sacrifice in the making
From crooked origins redeemed
I craved you before I touched you
You are the one of whom I dreamed

Threaded of the divine
Knit into the fabric of the Son
Whether chosen or prearranged by God
To me you are the one...

Faith In 2020 (Part 2)

when did healing ever come
by way of guilt tripping the wounded
and who's wrong and who is right
unbridled desire, un-tamable fire
and I cant help but want you

yet craving is poison
when reduced to a fix
and I speak love on the lips
of a counterfeit

oh I am the beam in my own eye
obstructions of divinities view
and I cant see God quite so clearly
when loving the unseen
is in the way I feel I fail to love you

I choke on my own tongue
my fountain of conviction and indecision
calibrate a way towards destiny
as I utter detours to pit falls

can we salvage the journey
and love conquer the death in my heart
as I shed the weight of my flesh
everyday I am the burden I crucify
life is its own sacrifice to survive
and you're the only reason that I'm still alive

hope to regulate the heartbeat
when a life with you is a life worth living
I don’t want to wake up from a dream come true
lest reality comes with blindsides
and I'm lost for the words that cost me you

scale my heart against yours, I fail to compare
don’t give up, no matter how hard it gets
I'll always be, will you be...there?

Faith In 2020 (Part 1)

oh duality of passions
love is in the fight as much the embrace
when every disagreement says I care
and we'll come to terms with it
realizing how much so

when lives are in the balance
somewhere between chance
and meant to be
forging legacies together
part 1 of our journey towards a lifetime

if only foresight was 20/20
and we could perfect clarity in a year
calibrating dreams and vision
till reality bears some semblance to
a more beautiful way to breathe

it took 12 years to come full circle
and find someone I never knew I knew
if I knew then what I know now
I wouldn't have waited to fall in love with you...

Broken Butterfly (Part 2)

brittle wings in a twister
obstructing flight from a to b
thrown off track
reflecting on you
coming to terms with me

in light of you
these parallels I see
haunted by desire
this is where I want to be
settled within unpredictability

the adventure of you
I journey into the depths
separately together
reform, redefine, identity...

Broken Butterfly

what is love
but the slow and steady ruin
of the ideals of romance
intimacy begins
where fantasy dies
acquiring a taste

beyond the way it feels
but the choice to remain
relationship is both
the pain of pleasure
and the joy of pain

abandon reason
we are fools committed to fools
I feel lost when I am found
in the disillusionment of us
and rediscovery finds
to know anyone
is the disenchantment of perfection

for the excitement of
the beautifully flawed
like symmetry gets hazy in the details
butterfly disaffection
temporal glories fade for familiarity

what will keep us in the end
but the will to say I do
in the moments it's hardest to
when love is not a matter of falling
but a choice made afresh every day
you are not forgotten
or expendable
despite what the actions
of a former life may say...